sixteen: school starts

school started yesterday, and finally. was nice to get back to class, nice in an odd sense. even though we're doing a mainly JC covered topic such as cytology, i'd expect to feel like it's just a mere continuation of where i'd left off but certainly things have changed. things like how not everyone is wearing the same thing, how there's generally a less enforcing disciplinary force, how the familiar faces are gone and we're all carving our own niches again. there's more chaos to the say the least. had an online conversation with a friend yesterday night about JC, and it really made me miss the familiarity. guess i don't really like changes in environment. i don't think many people do actually, unless the old environment was really bad.

somewhere in all those thoughts, NS seems to have been nothing but an honest mistake. it's not along the normal timeline, not part of the natural progression of my life, as if there was JC, it left and then came university. and NS doesn't seem to have a part in that spectrum. maybe it should, i think guys my age hold too closely to things we've learned in NS, experiences we've gone through in there. i don't see my parents or their generation constantly reminiscing about that period. i also don't believe that anything you learn there, sword of honour or rifleman, has any impact in this greater outside world where the rules are different.

august seems to be moving on nicely.