forty-one: after a long pause

i'm returning to this blog for 2 reasons, one is that i increasingly feel that stopping blogging and having my previous post as the final one is mildly embarassing. two, because i've been reading a couple of blogs and feel that if they have something to say, then likewise, me too.

yes, the CAs are in a week. i have had enough of the CAs really. it's been entirely draining. sadly, i can't relax completely with the half knowledge that something as important as a CA, which will decide the future of mankind (they always seem to decide the future of mankind these days), is in half a year's time.

this end of year feels different. it doesn't feel like the end of a year. not like the past when november was a prelude to a good holiday, prelude to grand things like Christmas and the New year. now it's merely an entracte. which i feel kind of takes away the charm of Christmas. hard to be in the season to give and love when you know in 2 weeks, WHAT! IN 2 WEEKS ONLY, all the nonsense of the rest of year, the expectations, the rhythm, and the major tests, will be breathing down your neck. i shouldn't be complaining probably, since the rest of the world save countries near the south have always been following this.