fifty-three: next skip

and so it has come to this. a year of medicine school will be over in 3 days, followed by a CA and then the final exam 3 weeks after. it has all seemed too fast to be true but yet, it cannot be denied. the advantage of a 5 year phase is that one can sit and pause intermittently to soak in the atmosphere of that phase of life, without fear of the moment passing too quickly. my example, JC, too fast for a breather to reflect and to realise the surroundings.

it amazes me how much has happened in this one year of school. how different it is from what i expected university to be when i was lying on some groundsheet at marsiling. how amazing it is that so much has changed in my life. sometimes life zips past so fast there is hardly any time to remember what happened before this moment, and hit by a wave of nostalgia for the past, i recount in my head how much army was a struggle to overperform and how it was like to yearn to leave it. and look here, now i am in the middle of medicine, oh how absurdly time flies.

somehow, i feel that with this past year and it's soon completion, i can finally say that i've moved on from the chapter before this. that finally, i can say that i am no longer in the previous phase of my life and that certainly, something different and new has occurred. it's the end of a lingering association. i think this closure is in no small part aided by my failing memory of the past but also more importantly, that i feel that i have added on so many new memories since that day i stepped into medicine that the old ones of army, or JC, or anything before, that i've begun to undergo the natural process of blurring. and this must be the natural process of all things.

two pages of the calender will soon be turned, still the arrow of time cuts cleanly through us.