fifty-five: defeated

there are times in life when you feel like the strength of your character is being tested. times when things don't go the way you want them to go, and sometimes the most unlikely of things can happen to catch you off your guard. and at the expense of sounding dramatic, i feel like something of this sort is happening to me now. moments like this fix me with a sense of powerlessness, i'm unable to do anything to change the situation, to make things better, or to exact the kind of justice dictated in my terms. moments like this when you feel that you're the most reasonable, the most wronged. but then, ultimately, justice is arbitrary, and, by the way, so is wrong and right.

but coming back to the point, i can only say that i hope that it'll be all over soon. and that everything will go back to normal, without all the drama. somewhere inside me, i feel that i'll come out of this learning something in the process, as already, i'm beginning to sniff some lesson and some good out of all this. it's been a sucky few weeks to say the least, but i thank God nonetheless, for giving me friends to see me through it all. i hope all this will end soon.